Obligatory 2010 Post

Seska — Wed, 29 Dec 2010 19:24:22 +0000

In roughly 51 hours it’s 2011.
Which leaves me just that amount of hours to look back on 2010.
A year with ups and downs but in all a year that ended quite well for me.
I learned a lot, taught others a lot and really came that much closer to how I want my life to be.

January

The new year started on a serious downer. I was looking at impending unemployment, had to change a lot of shit around to make ends meet with my salary and I really didn’t see how to get out of the valley.
Halfway through the month I got news that I could in fact stay at work, which lifted most of the pressure off of me and enabled me to breathe.

Also the month one of my hero’s, Arjen Grolleman, passed away.
This man was the voice over to most of my teenage life, educating me through KinkFM on music and inspired me to get into radio making. I always looked up to him and was lucky enough to have gotten taught by him. When I hear his voice over on the TV from time to time a lump still forms in my throat.

February

The month I decided to install Windows 7 (and I actually like it *gasp*) and I turned 29. The last year as a 20-something girl. February was a bit ‘dull’ as a month. I mostly filled it with enjoying my new Xbox 360 and playing Dragon Age like the good little nerd I am.
I also started postcrossing this month which I still do to this very day. Getitng random cards from strangers in between all the bills and spam just makes me happy. Random acts of kindness are so rare and something we all need so much.

March

March 11th I bought Final Fantasy 13 and played it through to the end in about a week or 2.
Also the month where an interview I gave for the college paper about BDSM appeared.
In March one of my (former) lovers moved to Berlin with his other girlfriend, I missed him dearly but keeping in touch through Skype worked pretty well.
Also had one of my WoW friends over from the US, had an awesome time visiting the van Gogh museum (which I would return to in a few months) and being dorks in general.
I started dating again in March, which I’d continue doing all through the year (quite vigorously too). Experimented with anal sex again and I figured out I’m an oxymoron.

April

The Mumford & Sons month. I must have played this song about 981623476 times in the past year and I still love it to bits.

In this month I got to know people I’ve always loved from a distance and we had talks deep into the night on IRC, went shopping in Amsterdam and went to parties together. In 2010 I’d grow closer to every single one of them, realizing that a family is what you make, not what you get born into.
April was already a warm month in the Netherlands. I spent quite some time reading on my balcony in a makeshift pillow corner. James T. Kirk got to go outside for the first time since he moved in with me in November 2009.

May

May started out with the Hamburg Fetish Fair. I loved every second of it, being in a place where I truly feel I belong. It was also the first time I realized I’ve been aching for a dominant party in my life (the job is still open, lol) and where I finally admitted to myself that age play pushes my buttons (everyone else already knew apparently, thanks for notifying me guys ). I bought myself a present, handcuffs, custom made by Matthias Fuchs from Nonon de Florette. It would take about a month for them to arrive but they where worth the wait.
Installed Spotify on my iPhone, still using it to this day and loving it a lot. Making playlists based on series I watch (Supernatural, True Blood).
Also the month where the dynamic duo of ‘Lof & Wichtje’ was born. Still going strong with my purely platonic lesbian lover :’)

June

June was probably one of the busiest months for me.
Had my first couchsurfer over since forever. We had a blast walking around Amsterdam, indulging in extracurricular activities and stood next to Kofi Anan in the Rijksmuseum. Exchanged some words with one of the most powerful men on earth and in fitting Seska fashion off course I didn’t realize who he was until we where out of the museum, lol.
I finally got into the groove of hanging out on terrace’s with co-workers in the sun and had my first ever Marroccan barbecue with my co-workers, including my first ever bong smoking (it was just apple tobacco!).
Elections where going strong in the Netherlands and it took a record time (well almost) to actually form a coalition and a government. I followed the elections closely and indulged in the live twitter thing people do at huge events like this.
Found a new doctor who got me shifted to other meds which are working way better for me. I’m tired less and feel better in general. My doc knows about my BDSM lifestyle and she’s not judgmental at all, she rocks.

July

Big decisions to be made. I got another position offered to me at work and after some pro’s and con’s decided not to do it.
Soccer was high in this month, but I ignored it pretty well (I don’t have any interest in the sport ).
More dating! I really like OKCupid for dating to be honest. I’ve tried some other sites but I’m not willing to pay for a dating service.
Kink related dating sites still suck balls by the way, maybe I should look into setting one up that isn’t horrendous.
I discovered that dating a vanilla and monogamous creature just doesn’t work for me. Especially not when they force me into thinking mono again.
Also discovered that there are some awesomely cute kink friendly, cuddle addicted, poly nerds out there that DO get how I want to live my life and started dating one.
Had my IUD replaced for the first time, went pretty smooth and only had 2 days of ‘ouch’. Next time to replace it I’ll be 34 (weird thought!).
On July 24th (24/7) I instigated a BDSM tinted picknick in the Vondelpark. Didn’t think it would be that popular but we had a show of around 30 people

August

My mom fesses up that she’d have probably been poly if that was accepted in her time. She knows I’m dating multiple people (with consent in all parties) and loves me for taking my own path.
Henry Rollins live in Paradiso with his spoken word. I love this man with whole of my heart and then some <3
At a party I have a run in with a Dumbinatrix… Frustrating people who test the ends of my patience.
I also tap into my sadistic side by drooling over some pictures of powerplay.
Lost a lover this month. Sometimes people grow apart, sometimes people stomp out of your life in a fit of rage. I stayed pretty calm all through it and it’s okay. Later on in 2010 he’d apologize and we’d be civil to each other.
Played with a D for the first time in err, EONS in August. It was enjoyable and scary. It wouldn’t get a follow up, but at least I know I can submit to someone now.

September

I help out with the Usual Suspects (a kink un-conference) by doing some translating and promotion. Always wished there was more to the Dutch kink scene then there is and as a information-slut I just had to wiggle my way into helping out with this awesome event.
Together with Wichtje and Cuddlebud I go into IKEA just looking for frames (which I won’t find in the right measurements…) and walk out with a chaise-longue for my sofa
The covering of the addable part is a bit of a nightmare though and it will take me about 2 weeks before my ‘new’ sofa is put together.
Went all the way to Belgium to visit friends and had a blast. Great food, awesome conversations and we had fun helping them out paining the room for their (by now born) baby.
Another date, this time with a guy that would turn out to be a bit of a weirdo. Stories that don’t match up and a reminder that not everyone is honest in their relationships.
One of the many attempts in which I try to quit smoking. I’m still working on it today, but I’m already down to 4 – 7 cigarettes a day (opposed to the pack I was smoking a day again).

October

The Usual Suspects un-conference was in this month and lordy did that unearth some major stuff! (LIKE HUGE STUFFS DUDE YOU KNOW RIGHT?). I met awesome new people, saw old friends again, got introduced to needles and after the un-conference I went out with another friend to the weirdest concert this year so far (Of Montreal).
There’s something distinctly disturbing about men in skin tight outfits dancing around with paper mache shrimp masks on their head… I don’t care how kinky I am, that shit just freaked me out!
I discover the Appletini after the much enjoyed PEN!DU!LUM! concert. Dear LORD this beverage was made for me
Started physical therapy for my back (and to build stamina), after the 9 times paid by my insurance Cuddlebud gave me his old training bike. I still ride it 4 times a week
Went to a Sultry Sunday Soiree with Madison Young together with Wichtje and it was awesome. Despite the fact that watching porn with 30 strangers is at the least to say awkward.

November

Once again I got notified that my contract would be terminated upcoming March. It pissed me off (this was the 9th time I would be in this situation work wise). I was depressed and bitter for about 2 – 3 weeks and then decided to just get over it. To my surprise that actually worked like a charm and I just went on to do my job.
November was a good one with a lot of moral support from dear friends (both ways) and a lot of laughs.
The bi-weekly Sessions with Sessie are a staple with me and one of my friends, ordering in Roti every single time and talking about nonsense with each other.
Discovered that my ‘filter’ fades when I smoke THC and I start yelling shit at the TV.
Cuddlebud and I owned up to liking each other more then just a little bit and even though we don’t want to label anything it’s feeling pretty good.

December

Maybe because I’m still in this month, and maybe because it’s just true, December seems like the busiest month I’ve had all year.
Lots of awesome activities with my co-workers, evenings out with friends, relaxing in the snow and concerts and plays with Wichtje.
I celebrated the holidays with friends and loved ones, gave gifts I thought fitted the people and received more love then I even thought possible.
Picked up painting again (this week actually) and last week my manager came up to me with good news.
I can stay at the company for another year if I want. I do, I like my job, I love my life, my friends and my social network.

2011

I’ll turn 30 this year and I’m getting my bachelor degree (promise!).
2011 Is a year in which I’ll work on myself and the relationships I’m in. Be it friends, co-workers or enemies (we all need a nemesis!).

With only ~51 hours to go, I hope 2011 will bring you guys as much awesomeness as I can put into this Mary Poppins bag I have right here
*raises Appletini and winks*

Not so Blog

Seska — Thu, 11 Mar 2010 19:26:28 +0000

So, I was ~~planning~~, nay, Hatching, a blogpost for tonight and I just wanted to start typing furiously when my doorbell rang.

It’s my neighbor, she’s pretty cool and my mail sometimes gets delivered at her place, as it did today and she came to bring me my mail.

So, there will be no interesting blog today, cause I will be settling my cute little butt into the sofa, whipping out my controller and play with myself.

Blame this girl:

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